Today's cell group meeting was discussing a text in Mathew 6 : 25 - 34 about anxiety. We had a long discussion about this topic. This text is telling us that every day has its own problem, so do not bring a trouble from the past or think about tomorrow's problem. As long as we can surrender our life to God, He will help us day by day.
People may say we will do some 'gambling' if we really apply this text to our life, but actually I have a testimony about this. It was few years ago, when I still in Senior High School (Year 12). Many people in my age, at that time, will try to apply to many University because they afraid if they can't continue their study to university. However, I didn't. My sister went to a private university which cost 5 million rupiahs just for a semester tuition fee. Therefore, I want to find a university with the cheapest tuition fee. That's why I plan to take the 'National Examination' to enter a public university because the tuition fee for a semester there will be less than a half of my sister tuition fee. Many people ask me why I didn't apply to a private university, it's easy and the chance to be accepted is very high, but I kept ignoring them. There's only one thing I was thinking back then, I don't want to ask my parents to pay another expensive tuition fee. It's like a 'gambling' for most people, but I trust in God. I know He will give the best for me when I have faith in Him.
It's really unpredictable, I still remember the moment I received the announcement that I was accepted at a public university not far from my hometown. He answered my prayers. I can continue to university, it's a public university and it's less than 40 km from my house. He also gave me a bonus. I receive a scholarship from the government during my studies. People may think the blessing stopped there. As a human being, I was thinking the same thing. But God is bigger than everything. He has a plan for me for the future. It's only the beginning.
I didn't have a good grade when I was in elementary or high school. There's only one subject I like the most, Mathematics. Most people are scared when the heard about Math. They think it's a very difficult subject, but not for me. God gave me another blessing through this subject. In university I took Math as my major. It's difficult, but when you love something, you can do everything for it. That's what happen to me. I love Math, so I do my best in every class and exam. My motto is "I do the best, let God do the rest" and that's what He did. He gave me good marks which brought me closer to the lecturer. For me, that's a bonus from God. He also gave me an opportunity to help my friends with their study and also became an assistant lecturer.
I might experienced a lot of good things in my life, but not everything. When I almost finished my bachelor study, I got a bad news. My main supervisor was sick, she couldn't spare a lot of time with my thesis. I was afraid, scared that I can't finish my study in 3.5 years. But God always has His own way to help every one who trust in Him. I can finish my bachelor study in Math within 3 years and 5 months with Cumlaude predicate.
You may think that's the end of this story, but it hasn't finished. Those 'gambling' moments happen to me once again. It was around two years ago when I finished my bachelor study and want to continue my master. I was planning to apply to another public university in Bandung, but God has a plan for me. He gave me a way to know a professor from Australia and also gave me another scholarship. When I got the scholarship, my friends from the same scholarship were applying to lots university. They collected conditional offer as much as they can. They afraid if they didn't get a university within the given time limit, they will not get the scholarship. But I was doing another 'gambling' with my life. I only applied to one university, the professor's university. I didn't even try to apply to other universities because I believe if God can do it with my bachelor study, He can do it to my master study. Now, here I am in Australia. Studying in The University of Newcastle, Australia. It's not a big university nor a famous one, but I always believe He put me here for a reason. I trust Him and He will do something with my life. Thanks for reading. God bless you all.
Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Mathew 6 : 34 ~ ESV
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